Dear Myne - I am a Christian But He's Not

I have a situation here and I am really confused. You know what, when people say when it comes to the matter of the heart you can't fight it, they def know what they are saying.

I met this guy some years ago and we started getting to know each other. At first, I just wanted to know how it will go and then we got closer. He introduced me to a  beautiful world, changed my view about men, he is smart, responsible etc. Our relationship was not perfect, but we found ways to deal with situations, spice things up and communicate. Communication is VERY key to me.

The closer we got, the more sure I was I wanted to be with him. That was also the time I drew closer to God (becoming a godly woman) and this guy is not a Christian. Around this time, I read some articles about marrying non-Christians, heard some sermons and I started to feel "somehow" in my mind. So I broke up with him. I was scared of how he would react, I was scared of hurting him, and hurting myself, I did not want to but I had to do what I had to do.

The whole thing was miserable, very! I would have imagined myself getting back on my feet really easily but no. It has been almost 2 years since we broke up and I still think about him, I have casually seen other people but I have found it really difficult to commit. I have not felt connected to anyone like I did him. He is really different.

Anyways, some months ago he asked to see me, and I agreed. We talked, laughed, and had a really good time. Those feelings that I mentioned never died were still there. Yeah, they are still alive, living in my being and soul (lol). I saw him some more after that and now he wants us to be together again. He is still not a christian so nothing has really changed.

He promised that he won't stop me from doing my "church" activities and we can be together regardless of religion. I really don't know what to do because I know I want to be with him really bad but when I think of what God has done for me and the fear that the one person I love is not born again, I get scared. I get really scared. If he hasn't changed more than a year after I left him, what are the odds that he would when we have children (etc).

But I really do not want to walk out on love. I know he loves me and I love him too..

Please HELP!